SO!  I am officially 25.  The last birthday with benefits (i get to rent cars cheaper AND my insurance goes WAY DOWN!).  The next birthday with benefits the one for social security.  So i better make this birthday COUNT!  It's my big-girl birthday. 

Yesterday was my actual birthday.  I felt so special  because I never gotten so many phone calls and text messages on my birthday.  It was great.  But Michelle and I planned on going to Channel 1 because it's $2 well drink night for the ladies.  Who can pass THAT up?!?!  Channel 1 is the bar the Malcolm (Aunty) showed me.  The bar that I have now invaded and he's gonna have to find a different "secret spot".  muahahaha!

Well, Michelle and I head over to Mira Mesa because we needed to pick up and drop off stuff at her mama's.  Hanna was supposed to meet us at the bar afterwards but she couldn't make it.  Something about her landlord coming and she has to clean.   

Anyways.  We get there and order.  And I see LUIS!  I didn't think he remembered me tho.  So i didn't say hi.  Luis is the guy I met on the first night that Malcolm took me there.  The guy that was smoking a cigarette and started talking to Malcolm and me.  I remember the night I met him was a tuesday night, and on wednesday nights it's ladies night.  So I told Luis; "I'll see you tomorrow!"  and looked at Malcolm and said "I have a date with Luis"  hahaha!  Well that Wednesday Luis stood me up (joking)!  he didnt' go to the bar that day... hahaha  Well anyways, Luis was there and he remembered me!  He walked over and said hi... he thought that I wouldn't remember him.  LOL.  I introduce him to Michelle as "my boyfriend" haha

Well the night went on and Michelle and I were trying to figure out baskeball.  The Chicago Bulls and the Portland Trail Blazers game.  There was also a game of soccer on...  whatevs   Anyways, we see our bartender making this shot that was green and topped with jager.  It looked scary.  Then our bartender (who always remembers my name btw.  I LOVE HER!) comes over and hands me one of the shots.  Tells me something but i didn't hear.  I was scared to drink it.  So i did what Melissa would do.  I smelled it.  hahaha!  My mouth started doing that mucus thing cause I was scared to drink it.  Well I manned up and drank it.  It was actually really good.  Luis came to me and asked me if i had my shot and if I liked it.  I told him it was great.  Little did I know that Luis is the one that bought it for me!  LOL.  Our bartender comes back and asked me if I thanked Luis because he's the one that bought me the shot.  So the next time he passed by I thanked him, it was really nice of him.

Well the night went on.  And Michelle and I are proud to say that we are granny's when it comes to partying during the week.  Because damnit!  WE LOVE SLEEP!  hahaha I looked at the time and it was 8:53pm!  And we were only planning on staying there till 8:30 to be in bed by 9!!!  So we drank our last drink and headed out. 

Walking out of the bar was pretty eventful too!  We were walking out and a young man and an older lady were standing outside smoking.  The guy goes "Well have a good night ladies..."  and I say thank you.  and Michelle and I keep walking... Then he goes "I like your hair.. it's long.."  lol and I say thank you again...  and we are STILL walking away.  Then he goes "Don't you have a minute to stop and talk?"  and I say "Not now, sorry, but I'm always here"  haha and the older woman interrupts him and tells him to leave us alone.  Haha and then he says "Oh don't mind her, that's just my mom."  and I'm about to get into the truck and I stop and look over and say "oh that's your mom!? " all suprised!  That guy was comfortable enough to try and hit on me while he's with his own mama!  haha So before I get in I go "Hi mom!  How you doin??"  lol...  then I get in and I see his mom pulling him to get back into the bar... I yell out "Have fun!"  haha

Isn't that amazing?  How you're own child is comfortable enough around you that he can hit on other women.  It looked like they were really close.  A good Mother-Son team.  haha  He was cute tho, I hope I see him again :)

Well, you guessed it.  The second Michelle and I got home, we went straight to bed.  LOL

Last night was just the first night of the b-day festivities.  Tonight is the TGIF dinner and tomorrow is the house party and saturday is downtown!  I'll keep you posted

"Looking for these better days.  Got me thinking about better days. 

Time to question our lifestyle.  Look at how we live.  Smokin weed like it's not a thing. so even kids wanna try now. They lie down and get ran through.  No one watches them, clockin them, the evil man do.  Faced with demons, addicted to hearing victims screaming.  Guess we were evil since birth .  Product of cursed semens, cause even our birthdays are cursed days.  A born thug in the first place, the worst ways.

I'd love to see the block in peace.  With no more dealers and crooked cops - the only way to stop the beast.  And only we can change.  It's up to us to clean up the streets, it aint the same.  Too many murders, too many funerals, too many tears.  Just saw a brotha buried, plus i knew him for years.  Passed by his family, but what can I say?  Keep your head up, and try to keep the faith, and pray for better days.

Better days.  Got me thinking about better days.

Thinking back as an adolescent, who would've guessed it?  That my future years I'd be stressin.  Some say the ghetto is sick and corrupted, plus my P.O. wont let me hang with the brotha's I grew up with.    Tryin to keep my head up and stay strong.  All my homies slangin all day long, but their wrong.  So I'm solo and so broke, savin up for some Jodan's cause their dope.  I got a girl and I love her but she's broke too and so am i.  I can't take her to the place she wants to go to.  So we argue and play fight, all day and night.  Make passionate love till the daylight.  Plus we're about the get evicted, can't pay rent.  Guess it's time to see who's really your friend.  Tell me your pregnant - and I'm amazed.  So many blessings while we're stressin, looking for them better days. 

Now you and me were real cool... hell on them square fools.  Since back in highschool we were true, me and you.  Hardly parted or seperated, we stayed faded.  Affiliated with gang bangers and STILL MADE IT.  Up in gym, mess with me, you gotta mess with him.   Still dressin like grown men when rollin.  I went too dark, smokin Newports, gamin marks.  Gotta place in my heart, homie, stay smart.  Locked you up in the pen and gave you three to ten.  I send you letters with naked flicks of old friends .  Hopin you well, I know it's hell.  Doing time in cells, you need mail when your in jail.  And me?  I'm doing cool..  I settled down, had a family, workin in night school.  Every once and a while I reminisce and wonder how we came to this.  I miss the better days.

Better days.  Got me thinking about better days....

I send this one out to all the homies down in Clinton lock down, Rikers Island. All them dudes I was locked up with E-block, F-block, lower-H.  N-I-C in Rikers Island.  All the people I met along the way, better days is coming.  Keep your head up."

-Tupac

Tupac had great things to say...  RIP